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  1. I've tried looking stuff up but usually end up feeling more stressed/conflicted because it seems like there are a lot of people who are unhappy and not that many people for whom things end up turning out OK. There's some response bias there for sure but I still don't have much data in support of the other side. I *want* to be happy and excited about going to med school- I worked so hard and sacrificed so much to get here- but there's this pit of dread in my stomach. I was at a family event today and there were a bunch of people who came up to me to say they were proud of me but I just felt guilty for some reason and didn't want to talk about it at all. Part of my apprehension is that I had to choose between Mac and U of T and feel like I made the wrong choice. I'm scared of U of T's workload and culture. My undergrad was relatively easy and I don't have any background in things like histology, pharmacology, anatomy, etc, so I'm worried I'll be behind my peers right from the get go and won't be able to handle the volume/pace of workload. I'm seriously worried about failing out. Alternate plan is something to consider for sure- I don't have one. I'm currently registered for a thesis MSc in something I'm very passionate about (which was originally my back up plan if I didn't get into med) but beyond that I have no idea what I'd do. I'm thinking of applying for teacher's college or doing a second undergrad in engineering. I have diverse and long-term work experience but nothing that constitutes a "career" I can fall back on. I'd love to get a deferral for a year and really figure everything out but I don't think this constitutes "exceptional circumstances" as required for U of T. The marathon is something that scares me too. I'm 23 now, so I've got plenty of life ahead of me. But there are also other things I want to do with my life, like meet a partner and raise a family, and I don't know how realistic those things are in medicine. The idea of not having any income whatsoever until I'm 27 is really uncomfortable to me. The idea of not being able to have a life or hobbies or friends until I'm 30 is depressing. What's strange is that none of this is new information- I was well aware that this is what I was signing up for and decided to go into medicine anyway. I was not at all ambivalent about medicine until I actually got my acceptance. I am prone to depression and it's totally possible that I'm just in a downswing which is causing this fatalistic thinking. It's also possible that this is my impostor syndrome boomeranging back. I guess I don't really have to make a decision until tuition fees are due at the end of August, so I can kick the can down the road a little bit, but I feel kind of low-key distressed about all this given how new and out of character these feelings are for me.
  2. I was accepted to U of T in May, but I've only been anxious since then, not excited, and that's developed into a major case of cold feet. Long story short I feel like I'm not going to be able to handle med school/residency/actually being an attending, both academically and psychologically, and that it's better to walk away now when the only thing I'll lose is a $1000 deposit and not $40 000 per year in tuition and living expenses. I'm so tired of feeling down about this- I just achieved my dream!- but instead feel defeated and jaded already, and that doesn't seem like a good prognostic sign wrt a career in medicine. My anxiety is compounded by the fact that I haven't been able to find people in medicine that actually seem happy to be there- I've spoken to 4 attendings (1 peds, 3 FM) about this in since getting in and all of them have said that I should have chosen another field and that if I continue I should expect to be miserable at least the next 6-9 years. I thought I went into medicine for the right reasons but it doesn't seem like that will matter. Has anybody worked through these types of feelings before? Or does anybody have suggestions on where to go or who to talk to?
  3. I was on a pre-vet path for a very long time so hopefully I can provide some guidance. If you're looking at schools in Canada, the first thing to do is figure out which school you are eligible for. In Canada, you're only eligible to apply to one province based on your place of residence, so determine which one that is and then look at the entry requirements for that specific school. I'm in Ontario, so I was going to apply for the Ontario Veterinary College in Guelph. For this program, you can apply in your 3rd year of undergrad and if you get accepted right away, that's another 4 years minimum for actual vet school. However, for Guelph, most people end up doing additional years of undergrad before getting accepted so it's typically 4-5 years of undergrad + 4 years of vet school. Other Canadian schools will probably be similar. If you've got some years of university under your belt and/or you have some or all of the prerequisites already, you can shave off some time there, but for all Canadian schools you're looking at a minimum of 4 years for the DVM degree itself. As far as what's realistic for you individually, I can't really say without knowing more about your educational background, extracurriculars, etc. Please let me know if you have any questions about OVC or any general questions about being pre-vet!
  4. Thanks! Do you guys know how it's decided which 2 people get to rotate? Like is it random lottery, application process, etc?
  5. Does anybody know if MAM students can choose to do rotations at/with specialty hospitals downtown (e.g. SickKids for peds, CAMH for psych)?
  6. Still in disbelief that I actually get to post one of these... Result: Accepted to MAM (first choice), May 8 9:25 AM Interview date: March 24 wGPA: 3.92 ECs: Filled all 48 spots. Art/music/poetry, 3 years research (but no pubs), >3000 hours of employment, hospital volunteering, mental health advocacy, >2000 hours community service, some unique life experiences. MCAT: Met cutoffs Essays: Very personal and heartfelt. Interview: Felt OK walking out, then on the way home had a meltdown and convinced myself I had bombed everything, had red-flagged myself, was sure to get rejected. Guess it worked out better than I thought! Year: Final year UG Geography: IP Feel free to message for more details!
  7. I actually liked the institutional culture at Mac (WRC) better than at Toronto (MAM) and think I'd fit in socially at Mac much better than at U of T. My research interests are also represented better at Mac than U of T (medical pedagogy, medical ethics/distributive justice in healthcare). But I'm very vulnerable to burnout and I don't think I could succeed in the 3-year program wrt less time to explore specialties, no summers, infrequent/short breaks, and no time off for CaRMS. I'm also not huge on PBL- I enjoy it but don't want it to be my main source of learning. There's also the design of clerkship and distribution of electives, which a few of my Mac friends have been burned by. But I know I don't want to stay in the GTA- I grew up there and left for a reason- so I'll be trying to match away from Toronto for residency, which makes me lean towards Mac as I've heard you should study where you want to practice. It seems like there are pros/cons to each school and no clear answer in my mind. I just don't want to make a decision I'll later regret.
  8. Right now I think I'm interested in EM and peds. I don't have enough exposure to family to definitively rule it in or out yet but it 's not something I'm vehemently opposed to in theory.
  9. I'm super lucky to have two offers to choose between (Toronto and Mac). I think I would be a better fit for a 4-year school but the comparative costs of Toronto (total tuition, costs of living) are making me think twice. I won't get family support and I've already used up my OSAP student grants so I'm not eligible for them while in med school. I applied for the Toronto need-based admissions bursary and a couple of the other scholarships but didn't receive any. I already have ~50K of undergrad debt and I get so scared thinking about the amount of debt I'm going to be in when I finish. But I'm also nervous about the idea of going to a school I'm not sure is a good fit for me. Does anybody have any advice/wisdom on this situation?
  10. Hi everyone, I have a learning disability for which I've received academic accommodations my entire school career. Does anybody have experience in requesting academic accommodations within the MD program?
  11. Check with your school to be sure but deferred exams should not show up on your transcript. I have deferred several exams over the course of my undergrad and the courses look exactly the same as any other course on my official and unofficial transcripts. My school does differentiate courses completed under a supplemental privilege (i.e. extra credit) but for regular deferrals it's all good. As long as the courses are complete on your transcript by the time you submit OMSAS, you're good. Hope the surgery goes well and you have an easy recovery! Good luck with the application cycle
  12. Ok, thanks- that makes me feel a bit better In each of the occasions I'm thinking about the interviewer had asked me a new question (i.e. not a follow-up question) after the 2 minute warning had gone, so while I felt I was presenting everything clearly, I just didn't have enough time to finish. But I'm glad to hear that it's not necessarily a dealbreaker.
  13. In 3/4 of my stations, I got cut off mid-story by the buzzer and had to leave before I could finish. I know that's not a big deal in MMIs but does anybody know if it's a bad thing in the MPI?
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