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  1. IIRC, we (U of T students) do need to complete electives in 3 direct entry specialties, but that includes our selectives.
  2. Thanks everyone for your feedback on this issue. For better or worse, the preclerkship lead and dean of student affairs are already aware of my issues, as I have been communicating with them since early M1. They have been very supportive and accommodating of my issues through first year but I sense their patience for me is running out fast. Essentially everyone in my life has advised me to take the leave, but I find myself unable to actually initiate the process. I'm realizing that I have been struggling immensely with impostor syndrome- that I didn't really earn my seat, that I don't stack up to my peers, that I'll be a bad doctor- and that taking the leave will be the ultimate confirmation that I don't belong here. On one hand I feel like I need to "push through" to prove to myself I can cut it but on the other I'm starting to rethink my decision to go into medicine and wonder if there isn't another career I may be better suited for. Thanks again all for your feedback and advice on my situation.
  3. Hi everyone, I had a tough time adjusting to medical school this year. I developed an eating disorder and was in an all around bad state mentally and physically. After 10 months on waitlists I was offered a spot in a treatment program last night, but accepting that spot would mean deferring my second year of med school and returning in August 2020 with the class below mine. I'm most concerned about the impact this will have on matching and, if I do match, on my ability to secure a license. I know that in a perfect world my health would come first, but with CaRMS as competitive as it is, I'm extremely wary to red-flag myself and sacrifice everything I've worked for. Plus I've heard some horror stories about the CPSO review process. Does anybody have any wisdom/experience in this matter? Thanks!
  4. Hi guys, At my school we have short blocks and frequent tests (every 2-4 weeks usually) and I find that pretty much as soon as that exam is over, the information is gone from my brain. I was shadowing a few days ago and realized I had lost information I had known cold just a couple of weeks before. It makes me very nervous for clerkship. Does anyone have advice for being able to retain information on a longer-term basis?
  5. My goal has been to do FM/EM and work in a rural/peri-urban setting where I can split my time between FM clinic and EM. I'm currently an executive on my school's EM interest group and have been thinking about applying for an executive position on the family medicine interest group as well. These are both sincere interests of mine, and I think I'd enjoy both leadership roles. However, I worry that when it comes to CARMS I'll look uncommitted, indecisive, or insincere, and that will undercut my ability to make a case for applying to (and hopefully matching) to either specialty. Would it do more harm than good to hold both positions?
  6. As someone who was in your shoes who is now in med school, I agree with freewheeler that getting into med school won't change a lot of the concerns you have and will add on some new challenges to deal with. There is plenty of rote memorization of plenty of dry/uninteresting material, plenty of gunners/hypercompetitive peers, plenty of stress from CaRMS not knowing if you'll match to residency at the end of it (let alone in a specialty/location you actually want). From the outside, it might seem like it's all smooth sailing once you're actually in, but in reality there's just a new set of problems to deal with. And you need to deal with these issues in the pressure-cooker environment of med school, making them all the more challenging. This isn't to say that there aren't good things about being in med school, because of course there are, but it's not the idyllic experience many premeds envision it to be. Getting in won't make you happy. It sounds like you're really unhappy in undergrad. Is there anything you can think of to make yourself happier/make your undergrad experience more enjoyable? For example, it sounds like you feel some distress re: your lab courses. What kinds of courses do you like? What do you do well in? Try to identify what your academic strengths are and take more classes that play to those strengths, rather than brute-forcing your way through hard science classes that are uninteresting and unnecessarily stressful. For example, I spent my first 2 years miserable in hard science with very poor grades, then switched to humanities and my GPA shot up 0.3. Now that I'm in med school I am more disadvantaged than my peers with stronger science backgrounds, but it's nothing I (and my fellow humanities undergrads) haven't been able to overcome. It is so worth it to study something you enjoy and excel at. It sounds like you have an all-or-nothing approach to medicine, and you're putting all your eggs in that basket, which makes the stakes a lot higher than they need to be. My other piece of advice is to think about careers outside of medicine- not because you can't get in, but because identifying other potential careers and pathways can help take some of the pressure off. What do you like about medicine and why do you want to be a doctor? There are so many careers that share many of the roles/responsibilities of doctors, both inside medicine (e.g. PA, nurse, respiratory therapy, speech and language pathology, dietics, etc) and outside of medicine (e.g. teaching, counselling, social work, engineering, etc). Think about what drives you to go into medicine and think of other options. Maybe nothing would make you *as happy* as medicine, but there are still many careers that would allow you to get satisfaction from your work and do meaningful things. You could bring your talents to so many different roles and help people in multiple contexts besides being a doctor.
  7. At U of T in the new curriculum we typically have 6-9 hours of lecture per week, 5 hours of CBL, 4 hours of clinical skills, and 3-6 hours of anatomy, plus 3-9 hours of independent study material to at some point during the week. All in all it usually adds up to ~22-25 hours of class per week + the independent stuff. All but 3 hours of lecture are usually mandatory, and the independent stuff gets done on your own time.
  8. I'm only an M1, but so far I have found med school to be much more stressful and demanding than undergrad, but in a different way. Like brady23 said, the stress is different because all you need to hit is the pass cutoff (74 for my class) and you don't need to worry about getting 90s and doing a million extracurriculars on the side like you did in undergrad; it's the time and effort that goes into covering enough of the material to get that 74 that's challenging.
  9. I've tried looking stuff up but usually end up feeling more stressed/conflicted because it seems like there are a lot of people who are unhappy and not that many people for whom things end up turning out OK. There's some response bias there for sure but I still don't have much data in support of the other side. I *want* to be happy and excited about going to med school- I worked so hard and sacrificed so much to get here- but there's this pit of dread in my stomach. I was at a family event today and there were a bunch of people who came up to me to say they were proud of me but I just felt guilty for some reason and didn't want to talk about it at all. Part of my apprehension is that I had to choose between Mac and U of T and feel like I made the wrong choice. I'm scared of U of T's workload and culture. My undergrad was relatively easy and I don't have any background in things like histology, pharmacology, anatomy, etc, so I'm worried I'll be behind my peers right from the get go and won't be able to handle the volume/pace of workload. I'm seriously worried about failing out. Alternate plan is something to consider for sure- I don't have one. I'm currently registered for a thesis MSc in something I'm very passionate about (which was originally my back up plan if I didn't get into med) but beyond that I have no idea what I'd do. I'm thinking of applying for teacher's college or doing a second undergrad in engineering. I have diverse and long-term work experience but nothing that constitutes a "career" I can fall back on. I'd love to get a deferral for a year and really figure everything out but I don't think this constitutes "exceptional circumstances" as required for U of T. The marathon is something that scares me too. I'm 23 now, so I've got plenty of life ahead of me. But there are also other things I want to do with my life, like meet a partner and raise a family, and I don't know how realistic those things are in medicine. The idea of not having any income whatsoever until I'm 27 is really uncomfortable to me. The idea of not being able to have a life or hobbies or friends until I'm 30 is depressing. What's strange is that none of this is new information- I was well aware that this is what I was signing up for and decided to go into medicine anyway. I was not at all ambivalent about medicine until I actually got my acceptance. I am prone to depression and it's totally possible that I'm just in a downswing which is causing this fatalistic thinking. It's also possible that this is my impostor syndrome boomeranging back. I guess I don't really have to make a decision until tuition fees are due at the end of August, so I can kick the can down the road a little bit, but I feel kind of low-key distressed about all this given how new and out of character these feelings are for me.
  10. I was accepted to U of T in May, but I've only been anxious since then, not excited, and that's developed into a major case of cold feet. Long story short I feel like I'm not going to be able to handle med school/residency/actually being an attending, both academically and psychologically, and that it's better to walk away now when the only thing I'll lose is a $1000 deposit and not $40 000 per year in tuition and living expenses. I'm so tired of feeling down about this- I just achieved my dream!- but instead feel defeated and jaded already, and that doesn't seem like a good prognostic sign wrt a career in medicine. My anxiety is compounded by the fact that I haven't been able to find people in medicine that actually seem happy to be there- I've spoken to 4 attendings (1 peds, 3 FM) about this in since getting in and all of them have said that I should have chosen another field and that if I continue I should expect to be miserable at least the next 6-9 years. I thought I went into medicine for the right reasons but it doesn't seem like that will matter. Has anybody worked through these types of feelings before? Or does anybody have suggestions on where to go or who to talk to?
  11. I was on a pre-vet path for a very long time so hopefully I can provide some guidance. If you're looking at schools in Canada, the first thing to do is figure out which school you are eligible for. In Canada, you're only eligible to apply to one province based on your place of residence, so determine which one that is and then look at the entry requirements for that specific school. I'm in Ontario, so I was going to apply for the Ontario Veterinary College in Guelph. For this program, you can apply in your 3rd year of undergrad and if you get accepted right away, that's another 4 years minimum for actual vet school. However, for Guelph, most people end up doing additional years of undergrad before getting accepted so it's typically 4-5 years of undergrad + 4 years of vet school. Other Canadian schools will probably be similar. If you've got some years of university under your belt and/or you have some or all of the prerequisites already, you can shave off some time there, but for all Canadian schools you're looking at a minimum of 4 years for the DVM degree itself. As far as what's realistic for you individually, I can't really say without knowing more about your educational background, extracurriculars, etc. Please let me know if you have any questions about OVC or any general questions about being pre-vet!
  12. Thanks! Do you guys know how it's decided which 2 people get to rotate? Like is it random lottery, application process, etc?
  13. Does anybody know if MAM students can choose to do rotations at/with specialty hospitals downtown (e.g. SickKids for peds, CAMH for psych)?
  14. Still in disbelief that I actually get to post one of these... Result: Accepted to MAM (first choice), May 8 9:25 AM Interview date: March 24 wGPA: 3.92 ECs: Filled all 48 spots. Art/music/poetry, 3 years research (but no pubs), >3000 hours of employment, hospital volunteering, mental health advocacy, >2000 hours community service, some unique life experiences. MCAT: Met cutoffs Essays: Very personal and heartfelt. Interview: Felt OK walking out, then on the way home had a meltdown and convinced myself I had bombed everything, had red-flagged myself, was sure to get rejected. Guess it worked out better than I thought! Year: Final year UG Geography: IP Feel free to message for more details!
  15. I actually liked the institutional culture at Mac (WRC) better than at Toronto (MAM) and think I'd fit in socially at Mac much better than at U of T. My research interests are also represented better at Mac than U of T (medical pedagogy, medical ethics/distributive justice in healthcare). But I'm very vulnerable to burnout and I don't think I could succeed in the 3-year program wrt less time to explore specialties, no summers, infrequent/short breaks, and no time off for CaRMS. I'm also not huge on PBL- I enjoy it but don't want it to be my main source of learning. There's also the design of clerkship and distribution of electives, which a few of my Mac friends have been burned by. But I know I don't want to stay in the GTA- I grew up there and left for a reason- so I'll be trying to match away from Toronto for residency, which makes me lean towards Mac as I've heard you should study where you want to practice. It seems like there are pros/cons to each school and no clear answer in my mind. I just don't want to make a decision I'll later regret.
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