It was also my first year applying too. I'm not working in the hospitals right now but my job is requiring me to work from home so thankfully I've been keeping busy with that. Aside from work I've been doing some online courses in crisis management, science information communication, chronic disease management, and tutoring online (keeping busy seems to help me from thinking about this too much).
Yeah, I've poured through most of the posts too and come up with a solid maybe haha. So I guess I remain cautiously optimistic but also realistic in the case the list does not move.