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    premed24/7 got a reaction from greysweater in Feeling so done   
    Just needed to rant a little so here it is. 
    I have applied three times, first time straight rejected, the second time I had one interview and was waitlisted and this time I got three interviews at Ottawa, Mac and Queens and really thought this was my year, guess that is my fault as nothing is a guarantee but my interviews felt better than last year. I was really thinking I was going to do it this time and all the pain and sacrifice would be worth it.
     
    However, I have been waitlisted for all three and I'm devastated 
    The last two times I was sad that I didn't get in but was able to pick myself up and focus on the next cycle with some motivation and determination. This time I feel like my soul has been sucked out of me.
    I feel like an idiot to think I could get in and makes it worse a bunch of people I know have gotten in. 
     
    I didn't think my interviews went badly, Queens I actually thought I did great with the MMI but I guess I blew the panel.  Ottawa I am on the good waitlist but very low down and looking at the other threads it seems that it is unlikely since my time stamp is 7:46. 
     
    I just feel like this is it and I need to give up but when I think of that I just feel like my life has no motivation, maybe COVID is making things harder too since I am usually a person who likes to keep busy. Also I promised my parents this would be the last time I would apply at least for a while. So idk don't think anything is going to make me feel better for a while. 
    Thanks for listening/reading
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    premed24/7 got a reaction from hopetobeadoc in Feeling so done   
    Just needed to rant a little so here it is. 
    I have applied three times, first time straight rejected, the second time I had one interview and was waitlisted and this time I got three interviews at Ottawa, Mac and Queens and really thought this was my year, guess that is my fault as nothing is a guarantee but my interviews felt better than last year. I was really thinking I was going to do it this time and all the pain and sacrifice would be worth it.
     
    However, I have been waitlisted for all three and I'm devastated 
    The last two times I was sad that I didn't get in but was able to pick myself up and focus on the next cycle with some motivation and determination. This time I feel like my soul has been sucked out of me.
    I feel like an idiot to think I could get in and makes it worse a bunch of people I know have gotten in. 
     
    I didn't think my interviews went badly, Queens I actually thought I did great with the MMI but I guess I blew the panel.  Ottawa I am on the good waitlist but very low down and looking at the other threads it seems that it is unlikely since my time stamp is 7:46. 
     
    I just feel like this is it and I need to give up but when I think of that I just feel like my life has no motivation, maybe COVID is making things harder too since I am usually a person who likes to keep busy. Also I promised my parents this would be the last time I would apply at least for a while. So idk don't think anything is going to make me feel better for a while. 
    Thanks for listening/reading
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    premed24/7 got a reaction from mamabear in Feeling so done   
    Wow I havn't been on the website so I am so shocked by all the wonderful messages. 
    I am still feeling pretty sad and hopeless about this cycle but thank you for the nice messages. Not sure if I will try again or not but I guess ill see what happens this cycle and decide if I have enough energy for another cycle. 
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    premed24/7 got a reaction from Sweesy in Feeling so done   
    Wow I havn't been on the website so I am so shocked by all the wonderful messages. 
    I am still feeling pretty sad and hopeless about this cycle but thank you for the nice messages. Not sure if I will try again or not but I guess ill see what happens this cycle and decide if I have enough energy for another cycle. 
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    premed24/7 got a reaction from convertedlurker in Feeling so done   
    Wow I havn't been on the website so I am so shocked by all the wonderful messages. 
    I am still feeling pretty sad and hopeless about this cycle but thank you for the nice messages. Not sure if I will try again or not but I guess ill see what happens this cycle and decide if I have enough energy for another cycle. 
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    premed24/7 reacted to Jessletmein in Feeling so done   
    When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
    When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
    When the funds are low and the debts are high
    And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
    When care is pressing you down a bit,
    Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
    Life is strange with its twists and turns
    As every one of us sometimes learns
    And many a failure comes about
    When he might have won had he stuck it out;
    Don't give up though the pace seems slow—
    You may succeed with another blow.
    Success is failure turned inside out—
    The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
    And you never can tell just how close you are,
    It may be near when it seems so far;
    So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit—
    It's when things seem worst that you must not quit
    -John Greenleaf Whittier
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    premed24/7 reacted to caramilk in Feeling so done   
    I feel you. This was technically my 3rd cycle and now 4th post-interview rejection. Running out of hope.
    Does anyone have advice for talking to your verifiers year after year? I get defeated at thought of emailing them all again, telling them I didn't get in again, asking them to be a verifiers for another cycle. How did you word it for them to not lose hope too?
     
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    premed24/7 reacted to DrOtter in Feeling so done   
    I'm so sorry to hear. I think your referee is a much harder conversation to have since they have to do the actual heavy lifting of sending in your LORs. I just casually let my verifiers know that I may need the verification. I truly hope they'll understand how competitive med admission is and how much I sincerely appreciate their help. They might not even get contacted and mine aren't exactly personally invested in my application like my referees.
    I have only gone through 2 cycles with just one interview and was lucky enough to get in. So I can only imagine the feeling of defeat that was dealt to you. But I did spend the longest time preparing myself for the worst and it did take almost all the mental space in my head and the time between the 2 cycles for me was one of the worst. The amount of self-doubt and despair is unlike anything I'd experienced before. All I can say to you is that on paper, you're a much stronger candidate than me (and many many others) with multiple interviews. I don't know how you might have prepared for your interviews this time around and if the online formats might have done anything to thwart that. But seeking help and guidance in prep will definitely be useful. 
    Those interview invitations meant something. Don't forget that. They meant that you're a stellar applicant that multiple schools want to consider you for an offer. They're a validation of your achievements and indication that you are on the right track. You've already cleared so many hurdles compared to others. Please keep at it because you clearly have it in you, and the only other thing you need is to translate your story and fitness for the profession to the interview setting. The vast majority of candidates can't possibly say as much. 
    I wish you all the strength and tenacity in the world. And feel free to reach out if you ever feel like you need someone to talk to. 
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    premed24/7 reacted to Borat Sagdiyev in Feeling so done   
    I feel the exact same way. This was my second application cycle, received 4 interviews and was waitlisted at all. I am so baffled as to what went wrong. I "checked all the boxes", did diverse ECs, A LOT of research, prepped for months for interviews. Last year I told myself that it was my interviewing that I needed to work on (whatever to get me through applying again), but this year I did an absurd amount of prep and I honestly don't think there was much I could do to improve. I'm sorry that I need to vent and I don't think I'm God's gift to this world but I know the amount of hard work I put in, the consistency, the intensity, and I am just so utterly confused and angry. ESPECIALLY seeing individuals close to me get in and feeling left behind for whatever reason. It just makes no sense at all.
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    premed24/7 reacted to hijkl in Feeling so done   
    sending hugs to you all. the system is saturated with good applicants, and thus is unfair & somewhat random. i cannot imagine how you are feeling but i am sending strength to anyone in this position.
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    premed24/7 reacted to theevilsloth in Feeling so done   
    Same situation here. Last year, interviewed and rejected from 1 school. This year, interviewed and rejected from 3 schools. All we can do is keep moving forward! We are both getting stronger with each application cycle, you got 3 WLs which means you are almost there. Don't give up! Take a year off from applying if you feel you have to to stay mentally healthy, then come back to it.
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    premed24/7 reacted to convertedlurker in Feeling so done   
    I did exactly that after my first application cycle. I felt super defeated and thought maybe I wasn't cut out for med so I started working in sales/marketing at a software company. I realized I really missed the healthcare industry and took time off to rewrite my MCAT and get my certification in personal training (which gives me a lot of the gratifications I seek in medicine). Taking a cycle off to figure out a temporary life course for myself really helped me realize that I truly want to pursue medicine  and helped me find something I love doing while I keep applying. Now I'm sitting on Western's waitlist feeling defeated again but I have a career/passion in fitness/personal training to keep me focused and motivated in case I need to apply again next year. Taking a year off applying to focus on other areas of your life can really help in the long haul. 
    3 WLs is a great sign. I'd keep my hopes up for this cycle still but otherwise, you have a big support system here on PM101 in the same boat as you to lean on. We're in this together
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    premed24/7 got a reaction from grinjo in Feeling so done   
    Just needed to rant a little so here it is. 
    I have applied three times, first time straight rejected, the second time I had one interview and was waitlisted and this time I got three interviews at Ottawa, Mac and Queens and really thought this was my year, guess that is my fault as nothing is a guarantee but my interviews felt better than last year. I was really thinking I was going to do it this time and all the pain and sacrifice would be worth it.
     
    However, I have been waitlisted for all three and I'm devastated 
    The last two times I was sad that I didn't get in but was able to pick myself up and focus on the next cycle with some motivation and determination. This time I feel like my soul has been sucked out of me.
    I feel like an idiot to think I could get in and makes it worse a bunch of people I know have gotten in. 
     
    I didn't think my interviews went badly, Queens I actually thought I did great with the MMI but I guess I blew the panel.  Ottawa I am on the good waitlist but very low down and looking at the other threads it seems that it is unlikely since my time stamp is 7:46. 
     
    I just feel like this is it and I need to give up but when I think of that I just feel like my life has no motivation, maybe COVID is making things harder too since I am usually a person who likes to keep busy. Also I promised my parents this would be the last time I would apply at least for a while. So idk don't think anything is going to make me feel better for a while. 
    Thanks for listening/reading
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    premed24/7 got a reaction from askingforforgiveness in Feeling so done   
    Just needed to rant a little so here it is. 
    I have applied three times, first time straight rejected, the second time I had one interview and was waitlisted and this time I got three interviews at Ottawa, Mac and Queens and really thought this was my year, guess that is my fault as nothing is a guarantee but my interviews felt better than last year. I was really thinking I was going to do it this time and all the pain and sacrifice would be worth it.
     
    However, I have been waitlisted for all three and I'm devastated 
    The last two times I was sad that I didn't get in but was able to pick myself up and focus on the next cycle with some motivation and determination. This time I feel like my soul has been sucked out of me.
    I feel like an idiot to think I could get in and makes it worse a bunch of people I know have gotten in. 
     
    I didn't think my interviews went badly, Queens I actually thought I did great with the MMI but I guess I blew the panel.  Ottawa I am on the good waitlist but very low down and looking at the other threads it seems that it is unlikely since my time stamp is 7:46. 
     
    I just feel like this is it and I need to give up but when I think of that I just feel like my life has no motivation, maybe COVID is making things harder too since I am usually a person who likes to keep busy. Also I promised my parents this would be the last time I would apply at least for a while. So idk don't think anything is going to make me feel better for a while. 
    Thanks for listening/reading
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