May 14 Countdown

[duckduckgoose18 70]

I'm in this weird place where I want to know, but I also want to cling on to the little hope that I still have. :(

[hihi1234 11]

Is it too early to call in sick now? 

[waifu4laifu 56]

2 hours ago, Poloma said:

If I get in I am quitting omg 

I'm reaaalllly contemplating this too. Morale at my work is at an all time low and everyone is miserable. Holding onto that glimmer of hope that something will come but honestly whether its a yes or a no i'm probably quitting anyways lol.

[Kez 6]

5 hours ago, Poloma said:

If I get in I am quitting omg 

unfortunately a condition that my PI set when he hired me was that I'd stay and do my summer internship with him regardless of what happens with med admissions so I can't go back on my word and quit haha

[warthog 56]

The Cycle of Waiting

1. Hoping: “I have good stats, I think! I did okay in the interview...let me check the Accepted/Rejected/Waitlist thread again...”

2. Imagining: “If I get in, what will I do? Who do I tell first? What do I put on my Facebook? Omg I’d have to quit my job. Would I cry?.”

3. Someone asks you “What’s up?” or “How are you doing?” Or EVEN WORSE: “Any word yet?” This derails your confidence immediately.

4. Racing Heart: “crap crap crap what if I don’t get in? I’d have to tell everyone right? I’d have to start over...I’d have to retake the MCAT.” *lurks on PM101, r/MCAT and r/premed to torture self*

5. Wallowing: “I am not a competitive applicant. I shouldn’t have applied. I wonder what the career prospects are like for goat herding?” *aggressive googling* *cycles through memory of the interview for the trillionth time* *spends weirdly long time reading the medical school website when you’ve memorized it already* *a lot of sighing*

6. Try to Distract Yourself: Start reading books you’ve read already, start going on weird subreddit and YouTube spirals, start researching alpaca farming. “I wonder what Snooki is up to these days?” Wallow/Hoping cycle begins again. You wonder if you should’ve just gone into banking or teaching or public service like everyone else. More sighing. You go on YouTube again. 

6. The cycle restarts. 

[erythrocyte 233]

1 hour ago, warthog said:

The Cycle of Waiting

1. Hoping: “I have good stats, I think! I did okay in the interview...let me check the Accepted/Rejected/Waitlist thread again...”

2. Imagining: “If I get in, what will I do? Who do I tell first? What do I put on my Facebook? Omg I’d have to quit my job. Would I cry?.”

3. Someone asks you “What’s up?” or “How are you doing?” Or EVEN WORSE: “Any word yet?” This derails your confidence immediately.

4. Racing Heart: “crap crap crap what if I don’t get in? I’d have to tell everyone right? I’d have to start over...I’d have to retake the MCAT.” *lurks on PM101, r/MCAT and r/premed to torture self*

5. Wallowing: “I am not a competitive applicant. I shouldn’t have applied. I wonder what the career prospects are like for goat herding?” *aggressive googling* *cycles through memory of the interview for the trillionth time* *spends weirdly long time reading the medical school website when you’ve memorized it already* *a lot of sighing*

6. Try to Distract Yourself: Start reading books you’ve read already, start going on weird subreddit and YouTube spirals, start researching alpaca farming. “I wonder what Snooki is up to these days?” Wallow/Hoping cycle begins again. You wonder if you should’ve just gone into banking or teaching or public service like everyone else. More sighing. You go on YouTube again. 

6. The cycle restarts. 

I didn't know it could be expressed so perfectly in words.

[hiyayosup 124]

13 hours ago, duckduckgoose18 said:

I'm in this weird place where I want to know, but I also want to cling on to the little hope that I still have.

I relate to this so hard.

2 hours ago, warthog said:

The Cycle of Waiting

1. Hoping: “I have good stats, I think! I did okay in the interview...let me check the Accepted/Rejected/Waitlist thread again...”

2. Imagining: “If I get in, what will I do? Who do I tell first? What do I put on my Facebook? Omg I’d have to quit my job. Would I cry?.”

3. Someone asks you “What’s up?” or “How are you doing?” Or EVEN WORSE: “Any word yet?” This derails your confidence immediately.

4. Racing Heart: “crap crap crap what if I don’t get in? I’d have to tell everyone right? I’d have to start over...I’d have to retake the MCAT.” *lurks on PM101, r/MCAT and r/premed to torture self*

5. Wallowing: “I am not a competitive applicant. I shouldn’t have applied. I wonder what the career prospects are like for goat herding?” *aggressive googling* *cycles through memory of the interview for the trillionth time* *spends weirdly long time reading the medical school website when you’ve memorized it already* *a lot of sighing*

6. Try to Distract Yourself: Start reading books you’ve read already, start going on weird subreddit and YouTube spirals, start researching alpaca farming. “I wonder what Snooki is up to these days?” Wallow/Hoping cycle begins again. You wonder if you should’ve just gone into banking or teaching or public service like everyone else. More sighing. You go on YouTube again. 

6. The cycle restarts. 

This is just perfect! I've mostly been in the Racing Heart, Wallowing, and Trying To Distract Myself stages. I've been watching a lot of Bob Ross videos on YouTube. He's so calming, he makes me feel like things will be okay no matter what.

[SmartfoodLover 10]

I honestly wish they didn't tell us what day they were releasing results. I think I would be mentally torturing myself so much less...

[erythrocyte 233]

2 hours ago, SmartfoodLover said:

I honestly wish they didn't tell us what day they were releasing results. I think I would be mentally torturing myself so much less...

Fair, I prefer having a set day lol. When interviews were being sent out there were expert level theories on the release dates with some going as far back as 2009 to make estimates 

[striders02 21]

2 minutes ago, Monocyte said:

Fair, I prefer having a set day lol. When interviews were being sent out there were expert level theories on the release dates with some going as far back as 2009 to make estimates 

The lunar cycles don't lie. 

[Pakoon 96]

 

3 hours ago, striders02 said:

The lunar cycles don't lie. 

Trust me, I know all too well 

[anonymouspls 259]

Kawhi Leonard is my daddy

[hiyayosup 124]

25 minutes ago, ysera said:

Kawhi Leonard is my daddy

What a game!

[PotatoPotato 51]

Best of luck tomorrow everybody and thank you for the company you definitely helped me stay a little more sane and a lot less alone. I hope you all hear some good news tomorrow and whatever happens, you've all done an amazing job working hard over the years, putting your best application forward and waiting through this crazy process. 

[hiyayosup 124]

Heart pounding, can't breathe. In 24ish hours, we will know our fate...

[warthog 56]

It kind of feels weird knowing that in less than 24 hours, the trajectory of my life could be drastically different. 

On the other hand, I sincerely wish you all the best of luck!!! Regardless of the result, you took on this process. You committed to every step, and you made it this far — there are many that didn’t! 

[keener12345 79]

I feel like throwing up... lol this is gonna be a sleepless night!

[omgplspickme 3]

Suffering from LTMPID (life-threatening major post-interview disorder)

[clever_smart_boy_like_me 179]

^ your screen name has been my mantra for the last month and a half 

[Curiousaboutapps1 145]

GOOD LUCK TOMMOROW!! I wish you all the best

[HeroX37 5]

All the best to everyone! It's an exciting but frightening day, but you'll get through this!

[RPN-RN-MD 72]

It's been an honour waiting with you all.

[anonymouspls 259]

I feel sick 

[Butterfly_ 435]

Wishing you all the best!!! 

[struggling2getin 86]

Good luck all!