Legion Posted September 19, 2012 Report Share Posted September 19, 2012 I was talking about midterm exams. Are you serious? When are finals? I'm guessing you don't get much Time to study for finals then! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Robin Hood Posted September 19, 2012 Report Share Posted September 19, 2012 Are you serious? When are finals?I'm guessing you don't get much Time to study for finals then! This year, they will be in January. Because of the strike. Usually midterms are in mid-October I think and the finals are in December. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tesla Posted September 30, 2012 Report Share Posted September 30, 2012 No post in almost two weeks??? 2012 - Perhaps the Mayans are right :p f_d, busy as always I assume? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
future_doc Posted September 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2012 All of them have been removed. And I thought you were responsible. Busy is an understatement at times. Worked all night on OMSAS applications. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Legion Posted September 30, 2012 Report Share Posted September 30, 2012 All of them have been removed. And I thought you were responsible. Busy is an understatement at times. Worked all night on OMSAS applications. I was expecting you to be busy with med school work stuff You got nice time management skills Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
future_doc Posted September 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2012 Tiny contribution compared to last cycle as I did not promote my services like I had done last year. Time management skills are really essential to get most accomplished each day, especially for professionals, students or not! Am always busy with med school. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
future_doc Posted October 2, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 2, 2012 Heading to Caribbean again, Christmas break. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tesla Posted October 3, 2012 Report Share Posted October 3, 2012 Heading to Caribbean again, Christmas break. Oh REALLY? Canada not good enough? Joking! Christmas is light years away!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
future_doc Posted October 3, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 3, 2012 Always have something to look forward. Delightful weekend to enjoy and study. Cerena is back with us again. Generosity is wonderful. It ls enduring. Humility will always keep us grounded. We should always have another challenge. Striving for knowledge is lifelong pursuit. The spammers are really swarming today. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
apache Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 it's weird, superficially, we're very different but we have very similar approach in terms of achieving our goals i wonder what the origins are and whether we're more similar, lol because while i've had extreme experiences and may come off off sometimes personally, no one else on here seems to share an almost parallel modus operandi to achieving their goals despite the fact those goals differ i wonder if we've shared experiences because i find your life approach mirrors mine more than anyone else the only way i know how is to stay humble, assume nothing and keep fighting to keep advancing even when people tell me: wow it's never enough, like being comfortable believing that persistence, dedication, hard work is what lets me internalize control and that knowing, is very potent taking things for granted, can't do i like risk, but calculated risk externally, i seem impulsive, iconoclastic, wreckless but this is only a tenable approach when what seems wreckless to others is really calculated, intrinsic confidence's ephemeral it's the process that permeates outcome arrogance, is a pariah; uncertainty, to externalization i never trust my abilities, ever i've never accomplished anything on ability at least that i'll ever know i do possess tremendous ability, arrogance me an a colleague joke, the perception that sense of certainty, never implicit but a product of history, of probability it sounds arrogant, but certainties intoxicating it makes effort effortless, success, assured certainty stems from knowing: everything meaningful cannot be taken from your grasp it's not a belief, just statistics that second statistical deviation: percent success augmented with the experience of struggle frames the certainty of humility, passion passion which lights a fire inside a fire unmatchable; personally, experientially, fuelled coupled with a vision, uncompromisable, unavoidable humility doesn't mean rendering yourself uncapable in any sense, incapable of overcomming rather, humility, to me, a certainty that i will achieve my goals but desire alone, is not enough that my past, doesn't procure future however, my past, frames the future i know i don't lose, ever not me, but my approach, dedication because it's not me, the process the process allows for the result the process: no room for error i can't lose, not the person but the belief system, the process and what's the process, you know i want it, more than anyone i become irrelevant, hundreds of hours these are the key, intelligence; blah performance varies to such an extent that you remain in control, period because knowledge is power, education: liberation i always assume i'm an underdog but a hundred and fifty hours my vision will come to fruition because dogma, deleterious beliefs, nepotism, authority are bounded, some students amuse me admission to an md program: achievement but what matters is everything after and while i come off aggressive it's because i have an ends which is worth being combative over in the end, defending archaic paradigms based on appeal to emotion, fails because intensity, passion, tenacity, meaning, purpose create an entity, burning with passion unblinded by creeds; personally serving frameworks frameworks which stem from a distance a matter of ivory tower policy evidence based; if the evidence's favorable i mention these two a lot: it gets old, but the power to achieve your goals: if internal give you an unbreakable spirit, dedication chasing others visions, titles, cannot compare these practices procure comfort, veneration, arrogance a sense of certainty, a product of a system of ritual, safety ritual procures jumping through hoops, algorithm drink the kool-aid for too long and the structure, nepotism, become truth and what humility is left, none natural, of course, it becomes unecessary going through the motions, embracing bureaucracy in some sense, creates entitlement, certainty repudiate paradigm, and room for error slowly dissipates, ideology ensnares the devoted unless passion frames humility: means->ends you can't be stopped in life if you're goal, transcends career growth i love dominating zealots, not personally people often perceive an arrogance, underlying it's a matter of assumption, extrapolation presuming others behaviors, and their motivations are akin to their own desires this is natural enough, for most especially when dealing with statistical outliers extreme behavior, statistically's preceded with similar experience if other people had your motives experiences, from the emergent, to basic what's the explanation, behind the overkill perhaps a desire to proclaim domination however, hierarchical authority structures beg why? simply, we're similar, identical, f_d, myself? it's an interesting question, ends differ yet means are the same, superficially however, i sense a deep regard a deep sense of internal responsibility a personal connection, life events, unify albeit different ends, i'm probably wrong but that sense of personal dedication love for the process, remuneration enough for me, i fear other's suffering to challenge a paradigm, a hierarchy which perpetuates the view, that people are numbers, pursuant to maintaining authority especially within a culture of utility which so often gets caught, lost in the forest, process, engulfed within tying the whole to the momentary when the momentary, the future, engulf leaving little time to ponder why when reward stems from momentary mnemonics and when you're often so tired that asking why means skipping lunch like i said; humility is personal humility helps you persist when tired humility keeps you grounded, amidst success humility pushes you to your limits humility teaches you you're the vehicle humility reminds you, you're in control not because of title, name, achievement but because of a persistent dedication when results, become non-negotiable, because dedication stem from deep empathy, vicarious experience procuring the difference, and meaning, possible there is no quit, it's unacceptable it's not an option, so greatness is not something i believe attainable strictly out of narcissistic material desire not matter-of-factually, certainly, exceptions exist: deviations often the result of some psychopathology i suppose my thesis remains: deviance is more deviation than deviant: outliers are the result of outlandish situation so my view of superficial motivation, perhaps in another's view of me: mirrored in the end though, limits? meaningless so i challenge some people here whoever feels up to it, why? why anything, why try, what drives? i wonder if different motives differentiate... different approaches to life, fork roads my humility stems from my life believing title precludes merit, long ago until i learned this belief's self-perpetuating in fact, all beliefs are cyclical are you ever the underdog, intimidated? would this change following stringed success? what would happen if you realized you can jump step life's hoops seems tempting, but the means; excessive the ends: too far off, uncertain and this is another key process ascription of your probability of success at a certain point, certainty empowers but the initial hump, some transcend it was more luck for me snowball effect; now behavior:reward's >0.95 simple procedure: read 2000 pages, win know you'll win: 2000 becomes possible now, of course, to most here this is self-aggrandizement, or writing practice but most of these perceived diatribes set out to achieve a core aim empowering the average person; to know that your life's in your hands and i know, ordinary is extraordinary to many: family, community, kids: Everything and that's totally cool, but others people who dream, lack not talent but the mentality, self-determination, passion to know the can do anything it's something that's always bothered me university hierarchy, institution-empowering, individually-infeebling everyone has greatness in them, untapped and to lose that humility, self-efficacy individuality in the cult of insitution it's a bit saddening, however unsurprising as many ceremonies as i attended all the scholarships, the straight a's i just didn't fit in, believe eventually, it snowballs to a point i've seen to much real life and i'm trying to fit in i'm expected to... and, moreso, worseyet i recognize the predication, human cost of a system everyone's readily adopting i can't internalize; i never have finance is great, respectable, stable but watch margin-call's: during heart surgery how? so bankrupting vulnerable seniors' policy? watching love, drugged to delusion: electroshock watching it all go away, paradigm-shattering it's not an easy sell, really and i know this is bothersome because i'm not smart, i'm uncompromising translation: those suicides in my life: there's a reason you can't win because to me, well, it's personal there's a reason i'm an encyclopedia i think the phrase: without meds she'll spend her life hospitalized, forever and any perception of sanity: delusion strapped to a hospital bed, forever so authoritavely the man spoke, convincing i used to be a believer but well, managing borderlines, misdiagnosed bipolar although the 30 percent co-morbidity rate with snri/ssri, responding to an adjustment disorder perpetuating with d1/d2 inhibitors: eating disorder augmenting with effexor, perpetuate the mania 25 percent of which, is psychotic 2 weeks of psychosis hell, down-regulation induced following discontinuation, because power of autorney and resulting ect, didn't seem palatable paradoxically, the person get's better, extremely complete remission, minus the borderline characteristics but what would you expect, really? being a psychopharmacology cowboy is easy. patient population: glass ceiling recovery rates borderline, ptsd, complex ptsd, unexplained conditions: fibro, chronic fatigue, even hasimotos, linked? but that's a bit too complex yeah, not really, read 40-50 papers still rings, the reprieve of sanity could only come as a delusion so well, skipping on the detail of which there's much worse... more lol, i could join the faith: dsm-v! unless you know bout 1972, dsm-3 and ****, i do, just interest not to ace a psych rotation because frankly, minus the politics, anger i'd already be a thought leader questioning the diagnose-prescribe paradigm, balsy yeah, except i know everything, sorry intuitively, i sound like a braggard but i'm not aggressive, or pushy but paternalistic controlling people bother me and yeah, i've read cbt, humanism feminist therapy, sex therapy, 2500 hours what about culture, lol, oh my psychopharm, don't try, seriously, u lose read patents? know every minute detail rna expression changes in trauma, uhhh? oh, i'll leave out experimentals, obscurities international formulations, future formulations, 5-20 years so i guess that's the origin of that humility, i assume idiocy and the goal is mastery, ubiquitously the process is key, obsessive-work but you can tell, it's easy because well, motivations are tad different and believe me, titles drag sand when routine challenges, are indisputable, stratospherically because as much as your worldview view of yourself, prompts your retaliation i'm humble, and know the game i want my paradigm shift, besides... am i really worth debating? nah most people wanna enjoy cush life and unless you read 8hrs daily for 3 years, plus challenge yourself try substance abuse, with adhd, ptsd dextramethasone challenge? Wtf is that. Whatev. lol, this is more psych diatribe. maybe one to the **** neuro who dismissed me, really bad idea if i weren't so hyper-vigilant already lack of validation from traumatic illness oh, i'd go into the lit but, well, beyond checklists maybe difficult i'd totally sue him, but blah why do that, just solve it and not just that, review article in my head eh, lol, sure yeah, i guess that explains me and why i'm intense... i digress point is, dedication and hard work means the skies your limit, seriously plus, if you're less abrassive, aggressive... and are passionate about well, topics... that well say illicit less controversy you'll probably get knighted or something beats working downtown east side, van then doing the gabor mate thing then again, adversity is seductive, personally i'd prob slack aspiring for headwinds in medical micro, or disease contamination it just doesn't spark me, lol however, likely lots of aspiring leaders micro grads, survivors of tropic disease people touched by foreign disparities: gold whatever your goal, go for it but remember, humility, hard work, key! but if it means enough, well... i doubt these will be problematic once you see change, or vision and believe you can be that have the drive, passion, well then... those marathon sessions sort of become... lol, dare i say, kinda fun! i've been jamming to sum hitherto so im gonna post some lyrics of stuff i've been playing... cause despite all of the above, yeah thinking rock star's the end-goal lately, i'm just not quite myself, maybe... i do need some help trust my confusion, trust my delusions... now im in, over my head for something i said... so well completely misread, i'm better off dead well i guess you never heard i've met our makers, and **** they don't even know your name out with brown sound solo, yo! 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Robin Hood Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 One of the wonders of ADHD. it's weird, superficially, we're very differentbut we have very similar approach in terms of achieving our goals i wonder what the origins are and whether we're more similar, lol because while i've had extreme experiences and may come off off sometimes personally, no one else on here seems to share an almost parallel modus operandi to achieving their goals despite the fact those goals differ i wonder if we've shared experiences because i find your life approach mirrors mine more than anyone else the only way i know how is to stay humble, assume nothing and keep fighting to keep advancing even when people tell me: wow it's never enough, like being comfortable believing that persistence, dedication, hard work is what lets me internalize control and that knowing, is very potent taking things for granted, can't do i like risk, but calculated risk externally, i seem impulsive, iconoclastic, wreckless but this is only a tenable approach when what seems wreckless to others is really calculated, intrinsic confidence's ephemeral it's the process that permeates outcome arrogance, is a pariah; uncertainty, to externalization i never trust my abilities, ever i've never accomplished anything on ability at least that i'll ever know i do possess tremendous ability, arrogance me an a colleague joke, the perception that sense of certainty, never implicit but a product of history, of probability it sounds arrogant, but certainties intoxicating it makes effort effortless, success, assured certainty stems from knowing: everything meaningful cannot be taken from your grasp it's not a belief, just statistics that second statistical deviation: percent success augmented with the experience of struggle frames the certainty of humility, passion passion which lights a fire inside a fire unmatchable; personally, experientially, fuelled coupled with a vision, uncompromisable, unavoidable humility doesn't mean rendering yourself uncapable in any sense, incapable of overcomming rather, humility, to me, a certainty that i will achieve my goals but desire alone, is not enough that my past, doesn't procure future however, my past, frames the future i know i don't lose, ever not me, but my approach, dedication because it's not me, the process the process allows for the result the process: no room for error i can't lose, not the person but the belief system, the process and what's the process, you know i want it, more than anyone i become irrelevant, hundreds of hours these are the key, intelligence; blah performance varies to such an extent that you remain in control, period because knowledge is power, education: liberation i always assume i'm an underdog but a hundred and fifty hours my vision will come to fruition because dogma, deleterious beliefs, nepotism, authority are bounded, some students amuse me admission to an md program: achievement but what matters is everything after and while i come off aggressive it's because i have an ends which is worth being combative over in the end, defending archaic paradigms based on appeal to emotion, fails because intensity, passion, tenacity, meaning, purpose create an entity, burning with passion unblinded by creeds; personally serving frameworks frameworks which stem from a distance a matter of ivory tower policy evidence based; if the evidence's favorable i mention these two a lot: it gets old, but the power to achieve your goals: if internal give you an unbreakable spirit, dedication chasing others visions, titles, cannot compare these practices procure comfort, veneration, arrogance a sense of certainty, a product of a system of ritual, safety ritual procures jumping through hoops, algorithm drink the kool-aid for too long and the structure, nepotism, become truth and what humility is left, none natural, of course, it becomes unecessary going through the motions, embracing bureaucracy in some sense, creates entitlement, certainty repudiate paradigm, and room for error slowly dissipates, ideology ensnares the devoted unless passion frames humility: means->ends you can't be stopped in life if you're goal, transcends career growth i love dominating zealots, not personally people often perceive an arrogance, underlying it's a matter of assumption, extrapolation presuming others behaviors, and their motivations are akin to their own desires this is natural enough, for most especially when dealing with statistical outliers extreme behavior, statistically's preceded with similar experience if other people had your motives experiences, from the emergent, to basic what's the explanation, behind the overkill perhaps a desire to proclaim domination however, hierarchical authority structures beg why? simply, we're similar, identical, f_d, myself? it's an interesting question, ends differ yet means are the same, superficially however, i sense a deep regard a deep sense of internal responsibility a personal connection, life events, unify albeit different ends, i'm probably wrong but that sense of personal dedication love for the process, remuneration enough for me, i fear other's suffering to challenge a paradigm, a hierarchy which perpetuates the view, that people are numbers, pursuant to maintaining authority especially within a culture of utility which so often gets caught, lost in the forest, process, engulfed within tying the whole to the momentary when the momentary, the future, engulf leaving little time to ponder why when reward stems from momentary mnemonics and when you're often so tired that asking why means skipping lunch like i said; humility is personal humility helps you persist when tired humility keeps you grounded, amidst success humility pushes you to your limits humility teaches you you're the vehicle humility reminds you, you're in control not because of title, name, achievement but because of a persistent dedication when results, become non-negotiable, because dedication stem from deep empathy, vicarious experience procuring the difference, and meaning, possible there is no quit, it's unacceptable it's not an option, so greatness is not something i believe attainable strictly out of narcissistic material desire not matter-of-factually, certainly, exceptions exist: deviations often the result of some psychopathology i suppose my thesis remains: deviance is more deviation than deviant: outliers are the result of outlandish situation so my view of superficial motivation, perhaps in another's view of me: mirrored in the end though, limits? meaningless so i challenge some people here whoever feels up to it, why? why anything, why try, what drives? i wonder if different motives differentiate... different approaches to life, fork roads my humility stems from my life believing title precludes merit, long ago until i learned this belief's self-perpetuating in fact, all beliefs are cyclical are you ever the underdog, intimidated? would this change following stringed success? what would happen if you realized you can jump step life's hoops seems tempting, but the means; excessive the ends: too far off, uncertain and this is another key process ascription of your probability of success at a certain point, certainty empowers but the initial hump, some transcend it was more luck for me snowball effect; now behavior:reward's >0.95 simple procedure: read 2000 pages, win know you'll win: 2000 becomes possible now, of course, to most here this is self-aggrandizement, or writing practice but most of these perceived diatribes set out to achieve a core aim empowering the average person; to know that your life's in your hands and i know, ordinary is extraordinary to many: family, community, kids: Everything and that's totally cool, but others people who dream, lack not talent but the mentality, self-determination, passion to know the can do anything it's something that's always bothered me university hierarchy, institution-empowering, individually-infeebling everyone has greatness in them, untapped and to lose that humility, self-efficacy individuality in the cult of insitution it's a bit saddening, however unsurprising as many ceremonies as i attended all the scholarships, the straight a's i just didn't fit in, believe eventually, it snowballs to a point i've seen to much real life and i'm trying to fit in i'm expected to... and, moreso, worseyet i recognize the predication, human cost of a system everyone's readily adopting i can't internalize; i never have finance is great, respectable, stable but watch margin-call's: during heart surgery how? so bankrupting vulnerable seniors' policy? watching love, drugged to delusion: electroshock watching it all go away, paradigm-shattering it's not an easy sell, really and i know this is bothersome because i'm not smart, i'm uncompromising translation: those suicides in my life: there's a reason you can't win because to me, well, it's personal there's a reason i'm an encyclopedia i think the phrase: without meds she'll spend her life hospitalized, forever and any perception of sanity: delusion strapped to a hospital bed, forever so authoritavely the man spoke, convincing i used to be a believer but well, managing borderlines, misdiagnosed bipolar although the 30 percent co-morbidity rate with snri/ssri, responding to an adjustment disorder perpetuating with d1/d2 inhibitors: eating disorder augmenting with effexor, perpetuate the mania 25 percent of which, is psychotic 2 weeks of psychosis hell, down-regulation induced following discontinuation, because power of autorney and resulting ect, didn't seem palatable paradoxically, the person get's better, extremely complete remission, minus the borderline characteristics but what would you expect, really? being a psychopharmacology cowboy is easy. patient population: glass ceiling recovery rates borderline, ptsd, complex ptsd, unexplained conditions: fibro, chronic fatigue, even hasimotos, linked? but that's a bit too complex yeah, not really, read 40-50 papers still rings, the reprieve of sanity could only come as a delusion so well, skipping on the detail of which there's much worse... more lol, i could join the faith: dsm-v! unless you know bout 1972, dsm-3 and ****, i do, just interest not to ace a psych rotation because frankly, minus the politics, anger i'd already be a thought leader questioning the diagnose-prescribe paradigm, balsy yeah, except i know everything, sorry intuitively, i sound like a braggard but i'm not aggressive, or pushy but paternalistic controlling people bother me and yeah, i've read cbt, humanism feminist therapy, sex therapy, 2500 hours what about culture, lol, oh my psychopharm, don't try, seriously, u lose read patents? know every minute detail rna expression changes in trauma, uhhh? oh, i'll leave out experimentals, obscurities international formulations, future formulations, 5-20 years so i guess that's the origin of that humility, i assume idiocy and the goal is mastery, ubiquitously the process is key, obsessive-work but you can tell, it's easy because well, motivations are tad different and believe me, titles drag sand when routine challenges, are indisputable, stratospherically because as much as your worldview view of yourself, prompts your retaliation i'm humble, and know the game i want my paradigm shift, besides... am i really worth debating? nah most people wanna enjoy cush life and unless you read 8hrs daily for 3 years, plus challenge yourself try substance abuse, with adhd, ptsd dextramethasone challenge? Wtf is that. Whatev. lol, this is more psych diatribe. maybe one to the **** neuro who dismissed me, really bad idea if i weren't so hyper-vigilant already lack of validation from traumatic illness oh, i'd go into the lit but, well, beyond checklists maybe difficult i'd totally sue him, but blah why do that, just solve it and not just that, review article in my head eh, lol, sure yeah, i guess that explains me and why i'm intense... i digress point is, dedication and hard work means the skies your limit, seriously plus, if you're less abrassive, aggressive... and are passionate about well, topics... that well say illicit less controversy you'll probably get knighted or something beats working downtown east side, van then doing the gabor mate thing then again, adversity is seductive, personally i'd prob slack aspiring for headwinds in medical micro, or disease contamination it just doesn't spark me, lol however, likely lots of aspiring leaders micro grads, survivors of tropic disease people touched by foreign disparities: gold whatever your goal, go for it but remember, humility, hard work, key! but if it means enough, well... i doubt these will be problematic once you see change, or vision and believe you can be that have the drive, passion, well then... those marathon sessions sort of become... lol, dare i say, kinda fun! i've been jamming to sum hitherto so im gonna post some lyrics of stuff i've been playing... cause despite all of the above, yeah thinking rock star's the end-goal lately, i'm just not quite myself, maybe... i do need some help trust my confusion, trust my delusions... now im in, over my head for something i said... so well completely misread, i'm better off dead well i guess you never heard i've met our makers, and **** they don't even know your name out with brown sound solo, yo! 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future_doc Posted October 29, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 Once more, you have outshone yourself! it's weird, superficially, we're very differentbut we have very similar approach in terms of achieving our goals i wonder what the origins are and whether we're more similar, lol because while i've had extreme experiences and may come off off sometimes personally, no one else on here seems to share an almost parallel modus operandi to achieving their goals despite the fact those goals differ i wonder if we've shared experiences because i find your life approach mirrors mine more than anyone else the only way i know how is to stay humble, assume nothing and keep fighting to keep advancing even when people tell me: wow it's never enough, like being comfortable believing that persistence, dedication, hard work is what lets me internalize control and that knowing, is very potent taking things for granted, can't do i like risk, but calculated risk externally, i seem impulsive, iconoclastic, wreckless but this is only a tenable approach when what seems wreckless to others is really calculated, intrinsic confidence's ephemeral it's the process that permeates outcome arrogance, is a pariah; uncertainty, to externalization i never trust my abilities, ever i've never accomplished anything on ability at least that i'll ever know i do possess tremendous ability, arrogance me an a colleague joke, the perception that sense of certainty, never implicit but a product of history, of probability it sounds arrogant, but certainties intoxicating it makes effort effortless, success, assured certainty stems from knowing: everything meaningful cannot be taken from your grasp it's not a belief, just statistics that second statistical deviation: percent success augmented with the experience of struggle frames the certainty of humility, passion passion which lights a fire inside a fire unmatchable; personally, experientially, fuelled coupled with a vision, uncompromisable, unavoidable humility doesn't mean rendering yourself uncapable in any sense, incapable of overcomming rather, humility, to me, a certainty that i will achieve my goals but desire alone, is not enough that my past, doesn't procure future however, my past, frames the future i know i don't lose, ever not me, but my approach, dedication because it's not me, the process the process allows for the result the process: no room for error i can't lose, not the person but the belief system, the process and what's the process, you know i want it, more than anyone i become irrelevant, hundreds of hours these are the key, intelligence; blah performance varies to such an extent that you remain in control, period because knowledge is power, education: liberation i always assume i'm an underdog but a hundred and fifty hours my vision will come to fruition because dogma, deleterious beliefs, nepotism, authority are bounded, some students amuse me admission to an md program: achievement but what matters is everything after and while i come off aggressive it's because i have an ends which is worth being combative over in the end, defending archaic paradigms based on appeal to emotion, fails because intensity, passion, tenacity, meaning, purpose create an entity, burning with passion unblinded by creeds; personally serving frameworks frameworks which stem from a distance a matter of ivory tower policy evidence based; if the evidence's favorable i mention these two a lot: it gets old, but the power to achieve your goals: if internal give you an unbreakable spirit, dedication chasing others visions, titles, cannot compare these practices procure comfort, veneration, arrogance a sense of certainty, a product of a system of ritual, safety ritual procures jumping through hoops, algorithm drink the kool-aid for too long and the structure, nepotism, become truth and what humility is left, none natural, of course, it becomes unecessary going through the motions, embracing bureaucracy in some sense, creates entitlement, certainty repudiate paradigm, and room for error slowly dissipates, ideology ensnares the devoted unless passion frames humility: means->ends you can't be stopped in life if you're goal, transcends career growth i love dominating zealots, not personally people often perceive an arrogance, underlying it's a matter of assumption, extrapolation presuming others behaviors, and their motivations are akin to their own desires this is natural enough, for most especially when dealing with statistical outliers extreme behavior, statistically's preceded with similar experience if other people had your motives experiences, from the emergent, to basic what's the explanation, behind the overkill perhaps a desire to proclaim domination however, hierarchical authority structures beg why? simply, we're similar, identical, f_d, myself? it's an interesting question, ends differ yet means are the same, superficially however, i sense a deep regard a deep sense of internal responsibility a personal connection, life events, unify albeit different ends, i'm probably wrong but that sense of personal dedication love for the process, remuneration enough for me, i fear other's suffering to challenge a paradigm, a hierarchy which perpetuates the view, that people are numbers, pursuant to maintaining authority especially within a culture of utility which so often gets caught, lost in the forest, process, engulfed within tying the whole to the momentary when the momentary, the future, engulf leaving little time to ponder why when reward stems from momentary mnemonics and when you're often so tired that asking why means skipping lunch like i said; humility is personal humility helps you persist when tired humility keeps you grounded, amidst success humility pushes you to your limits humility teaches you you're the vehicle humility reminds you, you're in control not because of title, name, achievement but because of a persistent dedication when results, become non-negotiable, because dedication stem from deep empathy, vicarious experience procuring the difference, and meaning, possible there is no quit, it's unacceptable it's not an option, so greatness is not something i believe attainable strictly out of narcissistic material desire not matter-of-factually, certainly, exceptions exist: deviations often the result of some psychopathology i suppose my thesis remains: deviance is more deviation than deviant: outliers are the result of outlandish situation so my view of superficial motivation, perhaps in another's view of me: mirrored in the end though, limits? meaningless so i challenge some people here whoever feels up to it, why? why anything, why try, what drives? i wonder if different motives differentiate... different approaches to life, fork roads my humility stems from my life believing title precludes merit, long ago until i learned this belief's self-perpetuating in fact, all beliefs are cyclical are you ever the underdog, intimidated? would this change following stringed success? what would happen if you realized you can jump step life's hoops seems tempting, but the means; excessive the ends: too far off, uncertain and this is another key process ascription of your probability of success at a certain point, certainty empowers but the initial hump, some transcend it was more luck for me snowball effect; now behavior:reward's >0.95 simple procedure: read 2000 pages, win know you'll win: 2000 becomes possible now, of course, to most here this is self-aggrandizement, or writing practice but most of these perceived diatribes set out to achieve a core aim empowering the average person; to know that your life's in your hands and i know, ordinary is extraordinary to many: family, community, kids: Everything and that's totally cool, but others people who dream, lack not talent but the mentality, self-determination, passion to know the can do anything it's something that's always bothered me university hierarchy, institution-empowering, individually-infeebling everyone has greatness in them, untapped and to lose that humility, self-efficacy individuality in the cult of insitution it's a bit saddening, however unsurprising as many ceremonies as i attended all the scholarships, the straight a's i just didn't fit in, believe eventually, it snowballs to a point i've seen to much real life and i'm trying to fit in i'm expected to... and, moreso, worseyet i recognize the predication, human cost of a system everyone's readily adopting i can't internalize; i never have finance is great, respectable, stable but watch margin-call's: during heart surgery how? so bankrupting vulnerable seniors' policy? watching love, drugged to delusion: electroshock watching it all go away, paradigm-shattering it's not an easy sell, really and i know this is bothersome because i'm not smart, i'm uncompromising translation: those suicides in my life: there's a reason you can't win because to me, well, it's personal there's a reason i'm an encyclopedia i think the phrase: without meds she'll spend her life hospitalized, forever and any perception of sanity: delusion strapped to a hospital bed, forever so authoritavely the man spoke, convincing i used to be a believer but well, managing borderlines, misdiagnosed bipolar although the 30 percent co-morbidity rate with snri/ssri, responding to an adjustment disorder perpetuating with d1/d2 inhibitors: eating disorder augmenting with effexor, perpetuate the mania 25 percent of which, is psychotic 2 weeks of psychosis hell, down-regulation induced following discontinuation, because power of autorney and resulting ect, didn't seem palatable paradoxically, the person get's better, extremely complete remission, minus the borderline characteristics but what would you expect, really? being a psychopharmacology cowboy is easy. patient population: glass ceiling recovery rates borderline, ptsd, complex ptsd, unexplained conditions: fibro, chronic fatigue, even hasimotos, linked? but that's a bit too complex yeah, not really, read 40-50 papers still rings, the reprieve of sanity could only come as a delusion so well, skipping on the detail of which there's much worse... more lol, i could join the faith: dsm-v! unless you know bout 1972, dsm-3 and ****, i do, just interest not to ace a psych rotation because frankly, minus the politics, anger i'd already be a thought leader questioning the diagnose-prescribe paradigm, balsy yeah, except i know everything, sorry intuitively, i sound like a braggard but i'm not aggressive, or pushy but paternalistic controlling people bother me and yeah, i've read cbt, humanism feminist therapy, sex therapy, 2500 hours what about culture, lol, oh my psychopharm, don't try, seriously, u lose read patents? know every minute detail rna expression changes in trauma, uhhh? oh, i'll leave out experimentals, obscurities international formulations, future formulations, 5-20 years so i guess that's the origin of that humility, i assume idiocy and the goal is mastery, ubiquitously the process is key, obsessive-work but you can tell, it's easy because well, motivations are tad different and believe me, titles drag sand when routine challenges, are indisputable, stratospherically because as much as your worldview view of yourself, prompts your retaliation i'm humble, and know the game i want my paradigm shift, besides... am i really worth debating? nah most people wanna enjoy cush life and unless you read 8hrs daily for 3 years, plus challenge yourself try substance abuse, with adhd, ptsd dextramethasone challenge? Wtf is that. Whatev. lol, this is more psych diatribe. maybe one to the **** neuro who dismissed me, really bad idea if i weren't so hyper-vigilant already lack of validation from traumatic illness oh, i'd go into the lit but, well, beyond checklists maybe difficult i'd totally sue him, but blah why do that, just solve it and not just that, review article in my head eh, lol, sure yeah, i guess that explains me and why i'm intense... i digress point is, dedication and hard work means the skies your limit, seriously plus, if you're less abrassive, aggressive... and are passionate about well, topics... that well say illicit less controversy you'll probably get knighted or something beats working downtown east side, van then doing the gabor mate thing then again, adversity is seductive, personally i'd prob slack aspiring for headwinds in medical micro, or disease contamination it just doesn't spark me, lol however, likely lots of aspiring leaders micro grads, survivors of tropic disease people touched by foreign disparities: gold whatever your goal, go for it but remember, humility, hard work, key! but if it means enough, well... i doubt these will be problematic once you see change, or vision and believe you can be that have the drive, passion, well then... those marathon sessions sort of become... lol, dare i say, kinda fun! i've been jamming to sum hitherto so im gonna post some lyrics of stuff i've been playing... cause despite all of the above, yeah thinking rock star's the end-goal lately, i'm just not quite myself, maybe... i do need some help trust my confusion, trust my delusions... now im in, over my head for something i said... so well completely misread, i'm better off dead well i guess you never heard i've met our makers, and **** they don't even know your name out with brown sound solo, yo! 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apache Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 i'm really anomalous though, i have exceptional working memory, typically the definitive characteristic of inattentive adhd. plus my language abilities allow for a greater continuity of time via language as a meta-narrative of experience... these, as well as the fragmented perception of experience and inability to linguistically link experience causes time dilation (ach deficits in hippocampus) in many people with adhd, hence the inability to perceive time continually, and prioritize tasks in their mind for extended periods. of course im guessing i have some messed up d4 receptors, and an orbitofrontal that sometimes gets overwhelmed by my limbic... so i'm kind of a weird adhd, toss in c-ptsd and you get a ton more hyperfocus than normal, since associating academia with intense experience fires up those d4 receptors... yeah, on an aside, how's your sense of smell, i was reading in a clinical handbook that in many people with adhd olfaction is attenuated, but this is problematic due to reports that inattentive adhd diagnosed individuals also score high on dissociation scales, creating similar symptomalogy, even treatment response... (stimulants, at least with some norepinephric activity are at times used to treat depersonalization...) One of the wonders of ADHD. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Robin Hood Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 I feel I have a good sense of smelling. I‘m not of the inattentive type, I have both i'm really anomalous though, i have exceptional working memory, typically the definitive characteristic of inattentive adhd. plus my language abilities allow for a greater continuity of time via language as a meta-narrative of experience... thinternal distractions and hyperactivity.ese, as well as the fragmented perception of experience and inability to linguistically link experience causes time dilation (ach deficits in hippocampus) in many people with adhd, hence the inability to perceive time continually, and prioritize tasks in their mind for extended periods. of course im guessing i have some messed up d4 receptors, and an orbitofrontal that sometimes gets overwhelmed by my limbic... so i'm kind of a weird adhd, toss in c-ptsd and you get a ton more hyperfocus than normal, since associating academia with intense experience fires up those d4 receptors... yeah, on an aside, how's your sense of smell, i was reading in a clinical handbook that in many people with adhd olfaction is attenuated, but this is problematic due to reports that inattentive adhd diagnosed individuals also score high on dissociation scales, creating similar symptomalogy, even treatment response... (stimulants, at least with some norepinephric activity are at times used to treat depersonalization...) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Robin Hood Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 I feel it‘s good. I have both internat distractions and hyperactivity. i'm really anomalous though, i have exceptional working memory, typically the definitive characteristic of inattentive adhd. plus my language abilities allow for a greater continuity of time via language as a meta-narrative of experience... these, as well as the fragmented perception of experience and inability to linguistically link experience causes time dilation (ach deficits in hippocampus) in many people with adhd, hence the inability to perceive time continually, and prioritize tasks in their mind for extended periods. of course im guessing i have some messed up d4 receptors, and an orbitofrontal that sometimes gets overwhelmed by my limbic... so i'm kind of a weird adhd, toss in c-ptsd and you get a ton more hyperfocus than normal, since associating academia with intense experience fires up those d4 receptors... yeah, on an aside, how's your sense of smell, i was reading in a clinical handbook that in many people with adhd olfaction is attenuated, but this is problematic due to reports that inattentive adhd diagnosed individuals also score high on dissociation scales, creating similar symptomalogy, even treatment response... (stimulants, at least with some norepinephric activity are at times used to treat depersonalization...) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
apache Posted October 29, 2012 Report Share Posted October 29, 2012 lol, yeah, i'm not uber hyperactive or at least it's easily managed i just socially normalize it, lol people stopped if i'd prefer seating lol, since i never sit, serious maybe like ten minutes a day i think being outgoing helps too in groups my chatteriness gets by and in couples, other persons interested since i'm pretty good conversation, lol so i get away with talking a lot yeah, i go topic to topic but thanks to weird working mem i'm able to tie it together if i'm alone though, no attention notice like everything, often weird connections so it's kind of neat, lol you pick up on these anomalies like, no one else will notice since my attention floats, lucky tho wm links temporal thoughts, weird combo it's funny though, i notice things weird links, body language, nuances, idea's and other people are like, huh how'd you put that together, seriously so i'm kinda lucky, totally add minus add's biggest deficit, like honetly i sometimes laugh at ld label since i honestly feel huge advantage anyhoo... hooray for neuroplasticity, and meds I feel it‘s good. I have both internat distractions and hyperactivity. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
future_doc Posted October 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 Have the courage of your convictions. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
apache Posted October 30, 2012 Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 im so far gone, finding courage that's the past, a while back my convictions will be acted upon there's no other alternative, im tired of playing games, conviction to fight another thing left in the past my convictions are scary, their interests aren't the most popular, without opposition i'm always all in, full stack because winning means avoiding another phonecall that another friend gave in, unplugged i just found out something similar my uncle doesn't have much longer and i actually feel sad, uncommon i guess i'm not so practiced in hearing a cheerful, loving person someone who wants to live's... dying it feels natural, for some reason because i usually don't feel anything but this is different, it's sad but i can accept it. perhaps... that's why i feel sad, unusual suicide calls precluded a numb, confusion in fact, following the last one i filled out a seminar application so yeah, i guess i'm weird comparing my past with normal loss i guess this is something expected there's no sense of panic, fear no need to detach myself... honestly as sad as you feel, acceptance it's not something hard to find because i know he lived well ill get to say good bye so maybe i'm getting a taste of something everyone goes through, sadness additionally, a gaze through median lenses where i would clearly seem insane because this doesn't ellicit anger, fire just a sense of wishing, hopefully i might have been there, helping not that these are unfamiliar feelings just unfamiliar in their direction, hope which procures a sense of community bound by love and care, positivity this contrasts those previous positive charms who ellicited similar feelings, shared alone since hope had already passed on for most of those, deemed irreperable i'm still struck by the similarity the similarity in sentiment i share to my uncle, who inspires hope and creates a sense of unity between myself and those others, courageous in their attempt to give hope i'd wish hope's invitation remain open to all those people, at crossroads who will adopt hope or helplessness for disease is more than biology more than a process, a statistic it effects a person, a soul i can only hope the vulnerable caught at that crossroads, left undecided to fight on, to give up are allowed, by their own will rather the guiding coercive influence, you! me, her or him, or they... choose to impose, decide for him for the hopeless, and my uncle are the same to me: people knowing my uncle's life was happy already leaves me at peace,acceptance knowing that he'll be with family that he'll know he's loved, comforting i suppose death is no stranger so it's become something normal in this case, truly normal, natural death, as an old friend, welcome death, when an old friend, dwells but only for a moment now rather than sadness, celebrating a life is my approach, it's a first: acceptance, emotion, it seems natural though imagining a man who always glowed choosing hope, being afforded that choice reflecting on the last late call of similar nature and circumstance: conflict this person had their hope stolen accepting the call still is difficult whereas i've already accepted tonight's call my conviction's may come of aloof my uncle and the last call both mean the same to me i love them both. still though... when you've watched hope glimmer brightly happiness in a once empty soul forsaken, deemed hopeless, too much effort to few willing, here begins divergence common goals, and a team effort preclude a schism in our empathy a schism over who's most deserving of hope, which stems of soul soul ubiquitous to all men, women for medicine's the art of healing and healing can't be isolated, compartmentalized healing applies to mind, body, soul and my uncle, known for laughter for lighting up everyone he passed no doubt his soul will heal that his final moments will be enshrined in a cascade of hope, cheer because, undoubtedly, his will, remains hopeful the other, who goes unamed, hope that's something i hold for her i hope that she finds happiness a happiness that was taken away both of them, i'll hold dear close to my heart, fire... ice a life fully lived, heartfelt memories contrast, curiosity of memories never had this isn't really anything of opinion rather an earnest account of life of my thoughts and feeling; love! in a sense, if nothing else i'd urge everyone to find another someone whom you care deeply about look into their eyes: soul's gateway just take a moment... to feel just feel, don't try to vocalize really feel how much they mean afterwards, carry this feeling with you as you go into the world and remember, every person you meet has a person who feels similarly who shares that emotion for them in addition, remember, however different another... they surely share that feeling too so as different as we are as much as our views differ we are the same, deep down good night, and god bless everyone Have the courage of your convictions. 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future_doc Posted October 30, 2012 Author Report Share Posted October 30, 2012 We all must die some time, living on though others we've touched. Grasp life now to the full, don't waste your time on earth, rather make your contribution to others, society, leaving it a better place. Our true legacy is our impact upon others, not our material things. Hopefully, your uncle lived to the full making his contribution, large or small. Material things, arrogance have no value, live a humble and meaningful life, improving the human condition for others. All animals, humans, environment should be treated with respect, consideration and love. Life would be so different then. Today was a crisp November day. Winter will soon be upon us. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Birdy Posted November 6, 2012 Report Share Posted November 6, 2012 Missed two chem classes last week Because of my son's medical stuff. I'm feeling so very behind now. Which is a rather big problem, Since midterm 2 is next week! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
future_doc Posted November 6, 2012 Author Report Share Posted November 6, 2012 You have a way of succeeding. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
future_doc Posted November 7, 2012 Author Report Share Posted November 7, 2012 Frost on the windshield - winter approaching. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tesla Posted November 14, 2012 Report Share Posted November 14, 2012 Thanks for all your help f_d! Best of luck tomorrow! Peace out! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
future_doc Posted November 14, 2012 Author Report Share Posted November 14, 2012 It is always such a pleasure. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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